He was
Just a friend
At least that’s what I told myself
In order to subdued my bits of
Jealously,
For you see,
I wanted to stay as close to him
As I possibly could
So I told myself
He was
Just a friend.
I thought that maybe my feelings for him
Would go away if I kept
Telling myself he was
Just a friend
I wanted to think that he would want me again
More and more
Little by little
As long as he was
Just a friend.
I thought that I could hold on to our
Past memories together,
His scent, his touch, his taste
The way he tasted me, and enjoyed us
So I told myself he was
Just a friend.
I thought that maybe his lies wouldn’t
Hurt as much if
He was
Just a friend
I secrectly thought about him all day
Although he was
Just a friend
I told myself not to cry,
Not to be upset because
After all he was
Just a friend.
I told mysef not to let the drama get to me
The other girls
The rumors
The untold stories behind his eyes
The fact that I still loved him
I told myself I shouldn’t care
Because I was
Just a friend
But now that the tears have dried up
and I have come back down to the ground
I realized
That I can’t be
Just a friend
Just his friend
I can’t be
His friend.
For to be in love is far deeper
Than just to love.
And for me to say that I “just Love”
Is an understatement.
And thus the friendship ends.
©Danie Rae
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